rekt

I dreamed that I was in an office building looking to steal a file.  I was going through a cabinet and when I found it, a girl came up behind me.  She found me out, and said she was going to call for help.  I told her by the time she gets to a phone I'll be gone anyway, then she threw herself on the floor and started ripping her clothes up.  She said they'll find me when she reports that I raped her.  I noticed there was a camera in the lounge area where she stood, between me and the door, so I climbed on top of the cabinet and into the false ceiling, out a vent onto the roof.  I know the camera would catch her totally not being raped.  I got in my car and drove through what looked like an industrial area, like a power plant.  There were other people in the car I didn't recognize, one of them pointed at a tower and said there was smoke.  I looked up and there was red smoke billowing on top a white radio tower.  Then, the tower exploded, I assumed the red smoke designated an artillery strike.  I heard booms and saw rockets lifting into orbit on the horizons, everyone in my car was getting scared.  I saw a news helicopter approaching us, but as it got closer I saw it was retrofitted with weapons.  We got out of the car and I lead the people, including the falsely raped girl (???), into some tall buildings with narrow streets, where I thought the helicopter couldn't follow.  That's all I remember.

turtle Power

Clay told me his dream. He said he was in a store, and he got lost.  He couldn't find his mom and it was kinda scary.  Then Michelangelo found him and they looked for her together.  When they didn't find her, Michelangelo drove him home.  She wasn't there, so they drove back to the store.  Clay saw his mom but she didn't answer, and they lost her again.  So, they drove back home, and finally she was there.  Then, Michelangelo turned into a puppet.

Meditation

Sometimes we should think about something important, stop and ponder critically about it.  This time it's very important.  My heart is heavy and saddened today.  It's not anyone's fault, it's just a part of life, I learned that already.  When it happens to someone else, I remember how I felt and it feels worse.  My mother is hurting.  I can't wish her feelings away and take them for myself, I would if I could.  A person on this Earth out of a few, that I am blessed to have in my life, doesn't deserve this.  Watching her crumble is fucking awful.  I haven't prayed in so long, I have walked so far away from all that, I don't even care about myself in that way anymore, but I tried.  I cried and I fell, I pleaded for Him to rescue her.  I said I would lift her up above the waves even if it meant I drown.  I said I would take all that pain and anguish for myself, and swallow it with a smile if I saw her continue to be happy.  She deserves that, more than I and more than anyone I know.  It's not fair, I prayed.  I found I spoke truthfully when I pray, and that no answer came because of the guilt and shame I feel when kneeling before Him.  I'm lost and forgotten, but I don't care right now, mom needs comfort and a place to stay.  Mom needs a prayer from able souls, this that I am not.  I cooked for her, I made her bed and talked with her until she slept, I embodied a loving and caring son.  Until she drifted away from all this, into the place I love the most, in dreams.  In a sense I did take her pain away, I saw her off to that place, then buckled and broke down myself.  I won't let her see me like this, sad, worried, angry, she doesn't need that.  She needs love.  As I sat alone up so late, I found that indeed my prayer was answered without me knowing, that if God as an entity is love, He has channeled so much through me to give to her.  So, have it all mom, I kept none for myself, and sweet dreams.

Moo.

First I remember I was with a group of people, some friends and some I didn't recognize.  There was a girl who seemed drawn and interested in me, but I felt out of place and remained cordial.  The guys in our group attended her lecherously, which I thought was why she confided in me because I wasn't interested in her.  She asked me if I wanted to go vote in an election, for the Navajo Nation.  I said okay, and when we set out for the chapter house the guys followed us and she became annoyed.  When we got there, the staff made us take a test before we were able to vote.  I thought it would be like a survey or something relevant to the election, but it was a math test.  The front page of the test booklet was blank followed by three pages of multiple choice questions.  It was a timed test, and I finished mine quickly but I felt stupid after because the test instructions were to show how we got the answer on the front page, but I just did it in my head and didn't show my work.  I still passed, and she passed hers as well.  She asked if I wanted to go with her to Albuquerque tonight to celebrate our success, for drinks and conversation.  I said okay.  We left to get ready to go, I put on some nice clothes and went to pick her up, but at the house all the guys were there, ready as I was to celebrate.  She was really annoyed, and asked if I would help her do her chores and that she is unable to go, then pulled me aside to whisper that it was an attempt to get the guys to leave us.   I said ooookayyyy.... (??? wtf).  Then to her disappointment, the guys all volunteered to help her out.  She said her cows needed to be milked, haha what?!!!  Then, there really were cows.  They attempted, but the cows became agitated.  I tried it, I never milked a cow, it seemed I was doing it properly, and I ended up milking all the cows in my fancy duds, while the guys ogled the agitated girl.

all manner of Creepy

I dreamed that I was in a house with high windows and wood walls.  There were lots of people there who were complaining that there was a snake outside on the patio.  I went to take care of it, outside the patio was ridiculously large, like a football field of wooden slats.  It was covered with rattlesnakes, the buzz they made when I stepped close was deafening. I went back inside and told everyone to stay inside and that I had an idea.  Apparently, I had a terrarium in my room full of black snakes that could eat the rattlesnakes.  I took a few out and put them in a plastic grocery bag, then went outside and pulled a black snake out and tossed it at a rattlesnake.  The black snake ate the rattlesnake head first, and turned into what looked like a slimy worm that wiggled between the patio slats and disappeared.  I continued to eradicate the rattlesnakes this way, till the last one, and it was bizarre that it seemed I had an unlimited supply of black snakes in the bag.  On the last rattlesnake, I tossed the black snake at it and this time the black snake ate the rattlesnake tail first, leaving the rattlesnake able to strike back.  It did, striking the black snake over and over again on the neck until its head became severed with the rattlesnakes tail still partially swallowed inside, and I saw the rattlesnake continued to strike its own tail, poisoning itself and then attempting to eat the black snake tail first, with its own tail still in the belly.  The two bodies coiled around each other into a ball, then the small mass grew larger and larger, from like the size of a grapefruit to a basketball, then a toad popped out.  WTF!!!

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"COLLECT THE HEADS - LOVE - KING/QUEEN - RINGS - FOOD - HUNGER YET A HIGHER SATISFACTION - NO_BODY"

Sometimes, I don't remember.  Sometimes I write things in my dream journal at 2 a.m. and go back to sleep and when I read what I wrote in a sleepy daze, I think WTF is this?!? So, just to share, here is one I wrote and don't remember, can't make sense of and vaguely remember even waking up to write it down.  I write in caps also, is why. ???

the glass Spine

I dreamed that I was recovering from back surgery.  I laid in the hospital bed, and the doctor told me they had to put glass in my spine.  He said it was the perfect material to help me, but considering it was glass I couldn't move too much or I would shatter my implants (??? the fuck!).  I hate doctors and hospitals, this felt like a nightmare.  When I woke, the dream doctor and my surgery was ridiculous, but in the dream I felt so convinced that my life depended on not breaking my glass spine.  The doctor said I would see a physical therapist who specializes in rehabilitating people with glass spines, and over time my muscles will compensate for and protect it.  Then, he said I would have an increase in neural activity within my body because my spine would be able to send information more efficiently just like fiber-optic technology.  I immediately thought "Bullshit!!!", and continued to not trust him and freak the fuck out, that's all I remember.